The Gravel Road

We all have to start somewhere. For me, it was like a sudden switch being flicked on inside my brain. I do not like change, but I knew in this moment change was exactly what I needed. Just like the time when I decided to colour my hair red. I thought it was always better to fit in with the crowd rather than to stand out. That is when I came to a conclusion; it is not about impressing other people and trying to fit in with the social norms of society. Life is about expressing who you are, staying true to your values, and sharing your ideas in hopes of inspiring the world around you.

I decided to take this sudden spark of motivation and ignite something much greater within myself. I wanted to run. Like they say, “running is a therapeutic asset to the mind and body” and as these words sunk in, I quickly tied my shoelaces.

Setting foot on a neighbourhood path, I kept running and running and running. I then ran down a long road that lead straight to another road composed of gravel. This particular road put me in a state of exhaustion, fear, and the utmost vulnerability to things much greater than myself. It was the ultimate test. Turn back and remain within the confines of my comfort zone, allowing the thought “what if” to sit on the tip of my tongue or decide to move forward with an open mind.

I went with the feeling in my gut. Always move forward on your journey through life, even if it scares you. As fearful situations tend to push the majority of people away, I knew it was time to overtake these feelings of discomfort. For this reason, I wanted to exceed my limitations. People cannot expect to make changes in their lives and achieve their life goals if they are not willing to sprint across the finish line for them.

Though The Gravel Road seemed endless, I kept on running. My breathing grew heavier and my legs felt like two weights attempting to drag me down with every step. There was a continuation of cars zooming past me, kicking up gravel as they drove by which too brought forth intuitions of fear. Although nothing scared me more than the fact that I was alone, with no sense of time or idea of how far I was from home. The sun began to set and as I persisted to endure this newfound adventure, I came to a realization. This entire experience has not only conveyed just how essential spending time alone measures out to be, but it has also proven to be a perfect opportunity to reflect on who I am and the changes I need to make to improve my well-being.

In my life’s entirety, I have been so afraid of being vulnerable, yet I have always encouraged others to put themselves on the line. Seeing now that it is not that easy, I can understand why people are hesitant to try new things and to speak up for their beliefs. However, it can be extremely scary looking towards the future and not knowing what to expect. Not knowing what our future beholds is the true mischievous joy of life. It’s what keeps us on our toes continuing to pursue our goals and to withhold strength and determination. After all it was The Gravel Road that changed my mind-set. The Gravel Road, a blank page of which I chose to fill.

Written by Tessa R. Adamski